I had to give myself a pep talk today.
Anyone else have those days?
I mean I have so many many blessing to count- I’m literally sitting at the park at this moment surrounded by little children laughing (my kids brought friends so I don’t have the constant “mom mom mom” I mean that’s a blessing in itself right now) the sun is shinning down on me, light breeze is blowing…. I got a new tea from the place in town that tastes like peach or maybe it’s pineapple, now that I think about it… what could be better?
Today I woke up hard. But let’s be honest I went to bed like that. I’ve always tried to be someone that “rolled with the punches” even if I didn’t always succeed I always really tried
I wasn’t in the mindset of being thankful or rolling with any punches. I mean it’s really easy to let the bad kind of take over right now, right?
Then school…. yep school got pushed again until next month. Do you know how deep this hurts inside… and not for the selfish reasons you probably think- although yes, for some of those reasons (probably more of those reasons then I’d like to admit)- but let me lay it out for just a minute…
First, my husband is a teacher- I love him dearly, I also love and appreciate all the teachers he works with and all the teachers in every part of our country and the world. I’m in no way saying their health doesn’t matter or that they shouldn’t be prepared or shouldn’t have more time- at all.
But schools and teachers are important- and online learning doesn’t work for our family. (I’m thrilled if it does for yours!!) My little babies (who aren’t so little anymore) need to go back to school. They need that routine. They need the in class learning. They need their friends. They need to feel the accomplishment. They need the teachers. I also need all of this.. I need the routine back. (Selfish reason right there!)
There is a lot of controversy over all of this. And I refuse to get into any discussion over it… I know there are people that disagree with me- some being teachers, and that’s OK! That’s why we live in America and why we have our own opinions and can voice them. These are my opinions. But while I was sitting this morning wallowing in my self pity and being so frustrated with our world and how “different” it all seems in 2020, a verse came to mind… and I had to look it up.
It’s found in Hebrews… and when I searched more it really hit straight to my core…. I mean… I don’t ever feel like God straight out “talks” to me like in clouds or burning bushes you know… but He totally Jesus slapped me this morning in the kindest, gentlest, “girl get your mood checked” kind of way… let me share.
Hebrews 13:5-6 NIV
“Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?””
Be content with what you have… in this day and age that’s a hard one to do- because the grass is always greener on the other side of the not fully functioning playground…. Ahh and did you see that last part… never will I leave you; never will I forsake you, the Lord is my helper… I will not be afraid….
It gets better. Not only does this apply to my kiddo not going to school until sometime next month… or the fact that we might be distant learning some, or probably at some point (I am NOT a teacher- it’s not my profession.. I purposefully did not go to school to achieve that career for a reason, people) and that all of that scares the bajeebies out of my ever loving soul… (being real with you) it also applies with our lives of politics- whichever side you’re on- you have to be living in a hole (and I feel like you’d still know what was going on) if you didn’t know this was an election year! I mean, that can stir up all kinds of inward turmoil- we all have thoughts about who we “think” is best… the thing I have to tell you about that? Pray about it. BUT “the Lord is my helper” so – He told me this morning “Courtney why are you stressing? When I’m helping you- you don’t have anything to be concerned about! I’ve totally got your back, don’t be afraid”
Then we come to the … duh duh duh… virus.
It’s really made us uncertain. Unloving. Scared. Hasn’t it? We don’t know what end is up, which way is right (or left for that matter 😂) if we should take a double shot of zinc or if we need to wear pants when we do the next zoom meeting (I mean how low does the camera go?)
So when I read that verse I went ahead and just kind of scanned above it … you know, to get context and all- and that’s when the “Jesus slapping” occurred…
Hebrews 13:1-3 NIV
“Keep on loving one another as brothers and sisters. Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it. Continue to remember those in prison as if you were together with them in prison, and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering.”
So it says right there to keep on loving…. we are living in some super unloving times right now.. the hate going on in our world is REAL. The struggle to be loving is REAL.
Keep showing hospitality to strangers… and people you don’t know… in other words keep being KIND! God is still working, He’s still in control! He knows what’s going on!
He has already written the story- remember that! Where are you when it’s finished? When the story says “the end” are you where you want to be?
In this world where nothing seems the same one second to another its written in Hebrews 13:8
“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.”
He is the SAME. Right now. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. He’s here. He’s in control. He’s got this. He hasn’t changed!!! And He won’t! Even when our news sources change from lunch to supper, God doesn’t! When our school schedules change, God doesn’t! Heck when our sweet tooth changes (which mine seems to do often these days…) God doesn’t!!!
I am thankful. I am thankful for our teachers and I’m praying for you all. I will support you. And whatever happens we will make it. It will be ok. I am praying for our country- whatever happens, we will be ok. God is still on His throne and that will not change! We have Hope because of this! I am praying we can bring kindness and love back- we need a stirring in the souls of people – that’s what we need most- love, kindness, compassion! Let’s check our hearts friends, when we can easily look at the complaints and the reasons we can sit in our self pity and fear (trust me I’ve been sitting there for a while) let’s instead look to joy and blessings. Let’s see how that can change our day, our moods, our actions towards others. We are all just doing the best we can, let’s remember that.
When the whole world looks hopeless and grim remember Jesus is Hope and He hasn’t changed ❤️ Courtney